leave (at least the SH bit) was so emotionally exhausting... to the point i feel so greatly comforted to be back at work.
giving professionally appropriate answers when people ask me how my leave went, is prob the only difficult part.
i must confess... i was nowhere close to 100% before i went off so it really isnt all its fault.
it just sapped me more, and my psychogenic polydipisia got worse (which...kind of made sense). its pathetic to admit these days i still take my stress out on large quantities of coke...(yes and i am still in need of an eye-opener in the morning... -__-|||)
but... i just stocked up on ice cream today... the morning coke habit may potentially shift.
221B
they've recently opened this sherlock holmes themed cafe/bar in SH. i was intrigued. at least i thought i should go and have a look.
well, i did go and look. the familiar looking door numbered 221B was enough to make me excited. with a reverent heart, i took a photo.
the reverent feeling sadly didnt last long. through the glassy bits on that very door, this frustrated looking SHnese lady behind the bar was staring at me angrily... for perhaps me entertaining myself with her property and not really contributing to her business...
i took one look at her, and fled.
soy sauce colesaw
direct flights to and fro SH are usually horrendous... (with warm fruits and juices and soft drinks which i am used to) it just got more ridiculous this time...
the salad bowl had a layer of colesaw... with two pieces of SHnese deep fried fish soaked in sweet soy sauce on top of it.
the fish was tolerable... given i was native, but fish flavoured sweet soy sauce tinted colesaw was still too much for anybody to cope with...
seriously why would anybody in a right state of mind think making soy sauce colesaw for international flights is ok behaviour...?
results
i've been having vivid nightmares about results.
and i've been drafting in my mind what to say in individual smses to friends if i fail -__-||| (...and am finding it really hard! its been many days, still haven't figured out what really to say).
in the past i've also been really bad as a rule in comforting others about unhappy results. it often reaches a point that the other party feels obligated to comfort me instead: hey i am actually ok... *pat pat*(maybe in between the lines: not even your results, stop looking so distressed and pathetic! 囧)
how would i like to be consoled by others when i get unhappy results? good question. i don't really know that either. >.<
(...this is all very embarrassing... so shhhhhh.....)
masha again
i am still going through Masha's old files... lol now and then so amazed by how he can be so psychologically minded and insightful without any psych training... *in awe*
the comments he made about Zankyo made me cry a little. it happens to be translated in english...
http://mashaheart.net/2009/07/03/ann-tamashii-no-radio-zankyo/
i really like these 2 bits too. They need to be read together.
"words of weakness"
"after 30"
the bit about the pig and the bear is soooo... cute. awww.... :(
"childhood memories"
