well... after 2 wks of being sick and having my lifestyle largely limited, finally i am feeling better and can again function normally (except a still strange voice with which i can scare ppl saying i have bird flu ^0^).
and today still went to hospital to draw in regions of tumour for 10 or so patients. (at the same time went through 1 novel, 2 authors' blogs... and a complete blog scan of all friends) so yes had myself moderately productive, but 100% entertained in my quiet, air-conditioned, personal office... the peace I find is a reali big blessing.
and suddenly remembered something very interesting from my last visit to Shanghai. When i was sitting on a bus one late afternoon, 2 little year 7 boys were standin beside me having a very intimate conversation.
it was approaching christmas so I soon realised they were talking about Christmas presents. after they asked each other about what did they buy for teachers, they started to talk about the Christmas cards they gave to friends. then one of them said with a big sweet grin on his face, while nudging his friend:
"i dun give cards to girls! i gave every single guy in the class a card, but only with you card i attached this 1 RMB worth little trinket...
on hearing that the other boy had a bigger sweeter grin on his face, reali reali excited about his 1 RMB specialness to his friend...
then the 2 giggled in the most intimate fashion...
very innocent, very cute, very sweet, and very gay.
I had since entertained myself with the thought of how gay these boys may turn out when they grow up.
after all year 7 means 12 or 13... stil a child but old enough to want to try out a less girly way of displaying friendship.
Shanghainese "gayness"
words by Saitou Hajime
Re-reading Rurouni Kenshin and really having a good time looking at Saitou-sama.
Found some reali brilliant Saitou quotes... since they r in English i guess they suit better on the English blog.
1. Humans are weak against terrorism and violence, and under such control their only desire is to survive no matter what. They lose all pride and respect.
2. Ten years, they're only two little words, but those years were very long to live through.
3. You tame a dog with food, and you can raise a man with money. But no one can tame a wolf of Mibu.
4. Only one thing stirs my emotion. Aku. Soku. Zan. For the sake of my justice alone!
5. "A man who cannot uphold his beliefs is pathetic in this world or the next."
6. Do not get angry... Few have the strength to risk death for the pride and respect that humans deserve. Because you do not need pride or respect just to stay alive…
and its quite weird that after i read quote no. 6 i went out of my office and saw this old lady on wheelchair wanting to go into the disabled bathroom. The volunteer taking care of her was a gentleman so he was at his wits end... as soon as he saw me he grabbed me and asked me to take the lady into the bathroom... As i was lacking in any proper care training I had a terrible time even pushing the wheelchair beyond the door... after wheeling the chair in, the lady, the volunteer and the receptionists outside the door all insist i stay in the bathroom with the lady, looking over her going to the toilet...
then quote no. 6 just jumped into my head and I felt rather sorry for the old lady who had to have me looking over her going to toilet. sometimes old age reali means u not only lose ur privacy, but ur pride and respect as well... As one declines in the aging process, its just a continuous lowering of ur living standard till all u care is to stay alive.
as i wheel her out because i was too distressed about handling the wheelchair... I din even remember to let her wash her hands. Pathetic, reali pathetic.. just because she is old she has to be so poorly cared by someone irresponsible like me..
Saitou-sama was right... few have the strength to fight for pride and respect although we all love to say we can fight for it... if reali sooner or later we r going to lose it all.. wats the point now valuing pride and other people's respect so much, even to the point of getting depressed over the lack of it?
Back
Ah, its a pleasant feeling to be back.
but to be honest i dun seem to have anything interesting to say about my trip... it is also my home and i dun go sightseeing or get excited about anything i see.
bought quite a number of jap series, as well as "yi dao", the story of this korean doctor...
so if anyone wants to borrow any please ask me.
