holiday agitation

i am in a state of pre-exam-result-releasing agitation...
the feeling of having to face the inevitable which is going to be terrible and no longer able to live in denial.... is reali... >___<
plus also the ill feeling of bearing ur own consequences of the lack of study while having no intention or motivation to change for the better next time.
so yes... very pathetic but not even worth to be pitied. =)
and this agitation made me feel i want to binge eat on oily spicy fried food.
but i will be dressing up for sunday and I do not want to show a round tummy thru the dress. 呜呜呜...
thwarted gluttony... hence more agitation.
and tiff is leaving... i can no longer say all these silly and terrible things and expect her to read it and laugh about it with me over gmail... for at least 3 wks. =D
more 呜呜呜....

anywayz i better stop all this exaggerated stupidity.
really thank God for the job. =) I need not make committment more than the holiday 4 wks, will have enough to pay the bridesmaid dress when i get my pay, and may even have enough to go on a trip to dali and lijiang. =)
and everything about Fukuyama Masaharu is so lovely! *hearts*