hard pressed on every side

tough day at work, difficult patient been difficult for months, exhausted, got unloaded with everybody else's anger + anxiety for decisions not made by me.

feeling hard pressed on every side, narcissistic injury +++, got home and thought i will go and check out my old writing site and see if any additional reader/comments to comfort myself.

...site got hacked, random inappropriate stuff added, then got locked.
now i don't even know how to retrieve my old stories and other ppl's comments etc...

now really hard pressed on every side.

欲哭无泪...T_T

well, listening to a nice chinese song to keep myself sane in this madness... more T_T...