Today did very little..... 4 out of the 5 fellow amsers left by 11:30am....but heard something from an IT technician thats reali interesting.....
he told me this radiologist would come in the technician office every tuesday afternoon for a few hrs to read films and write notes and comments.... then he asked me to guess what year did the radiologist graduate from uni of melb med school....
i couldn't know........ so he told me: 1939...... (not the yr he's born.... but the year he graduated.) And he said the guy comes in cos he doesn't want his brain to go rusty......
a 90sumthing old man coming to hospital EVERY tuesday afternoon to read films for the department..................................while a normal person may just vegetate out at home to enjoy the few yrs thats left of his/her old bones......
More inspiration for me to utilise my lazy youthful bones.......
1939
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From 2moro onwards i will be stepping into a happy 9to5 working person's lifestyle..... although when clinical reali comes.... the hrs may go more irregular... but definitely not shorter.... so yeh..... full-on working person from now on minus the financial rewards.
ppl always seem to marvel at a med student's idleness because of the unnecessarily long 6 yr course...... not realising that we actually farewell the idyllic uni lifestyle probably one of the earliest..
didn't reali realise this until friday when i went to see my supervisor then strolled casually to union house computer lab to read scanned mangas on the net..... that this is prob the last time i can be so relaxed and with so much freedom at hand...
oh well i guess a bit of discipline and routine can reali do my lazy bones much good.
hot chocolate on cold winter days
i prefer coffee so much more than chocolates.. except...
Yesterday went shopping with mum... and found something reali nice with delight! a set of suckao cups!!! exactly like wat u get in max brenner... the candle, the steel cup, the egg shaped cup warmer... and the very unique metal straw! i was so happy when i found it... spent an afternoon admiring them...
so got myself some choc chips.. and a cup of milk.... lit the candle... and there i was.. sitting freezing in my unheated room... yet warmed and amuzed drinking suckao at home.
a bit about me, and friends
i think i sometimes tend to depersonalise my blog posts... very little day to day experiences... little opinions about things... just writing to amuse an audience almost...
well... still working on the story atm... but since the high from the macdemia latte had today at Gloria Jeans hasn't worn off... decide to mite as well post something in English.
Met up with Carrie 2day... after half a yr not seeing each other almost... did nothing except sitting around and talk... FELT SO GOOD! almost as if back to the good old girl-school days... cracking stupid girl school jokes...refer to ppl in nicknames only we know... laughing and getting annoyed abt sad non-descript guys who had been annoying... almost felt like i am young and energetic again for some reason... by swapping silly trivial complaints as jokes almost...
has also been able to tell her about some of the grievances haven't reali shared with ppl.. seems so natural that she is told abt them... not so much as in she is the only person i felt comfortable to tell... or after thinking abt it so many time now at that moment it bursted out... just a very natural thing for me to say, for her to listen...
discussed a bit about church issues... seems that both of us will need to pray more about them and wait for God's work.
i just feel that the tight screw i put on myself since start of this year in order of self-control has finally unwinded a bit... able to express my emotions and thoughts comfortably without worry of causing any distress by anger or sadness going disproportionate.
just also made me think how much i relied on the group of "US" for support during my weakest days... how much they made me happy... how much word they said that made me so touched that i had to choke back tears... how secure and content and grateful i feel everyday in their presence, almost like my family to me.
very different feel... like one supports and one unwinds.. but without either i won't do...
after all the hardest bits had been through in this one... knowing there r always friends i can fall back on, its about time i can allow myself to slowly unwind and not be so tense about controlling myself.
And worse things may befall in the future... i guess i am always going towards being a bit more brave, a bit more firm, have a bit more strength, and of course a bit more faithful to God.
(got the idea of saying what i reali feel rather than thinking wats the point telling ppl...... a bit influenced after a conversation i had last nite.... a usually happy person admitting that he is not happy about things... kind of a triggering factor...
決定今後不要畏頭縮腦﹐不喜歡就是不喜歡。)
1st day, and a song
1st day of AMS... doesn't even feel like it apart from the ppl who are not here anymore. The 8 of us got chopped down to 4.... only the guys' gang formation and their carefree laughters made us feel that nothing much has changed.
last week added 10000 words or so to my story... sounds alot but 2000 words a day reali isn't much... hope i can reali resolve to continue and finish it for posting sometime.
b4 already wanted to separate a blog into chinese and english... but 2day prob going to break the rule... and post the lyrics of a song i reali like... 品冠's 門沒鎖. lyric actually quite normal love song stuff... yet the music has an unusally cheery, bright,even nonchalant tone... as if saying:
no need to make everythiing larger than life, 人生來來往往﹐有愛有恨﹐不過一首歌而已。
~門沒鎖~
品冠
扭開電視第二播
畫面一幅幅過
左耳跟著右耳閃躲
留眼睛獨自寂寞
門沒鎖進來坐
電話怎么沒響過
我削了一個苹果
只放著沒咬過
明明感覺你來吻我
卻怎么沒發生過
門沒鎖進來坐
連螞蟻也不放過
天都黑了你都沒來過沒來坐
戲都完了眼都沒眨過沒哭過
完美的劇情錯過
傷心戲份太多
太脆弱
連哼一聲都傷我
天都黑了誰都沒來過沒來坐
衣都挑了鞋都沒臟過沒走過
想要的戲也買錯
愛的人不愛我
太難過
我還能浪費多少個結果
in momentum
Today at donny pp didn't feel like anything cold.... so ordered a latte..... very strong one... and since haven't been drinking much coffee at home, the stimulant really gave me a high, which lasted till now...
farewelled alison before her trip to pommy land... the guys sang a reali sad and sweet song for her... i almost wanted them to stop singing cos it was reali making everyone sentimental and alison crying more...
got home and still on high... decided to decorate some 'romantic' fotos with my trial ulead photoimpact program which is expiring in 27 days...
spent one hr on 2 fotos. hope they r entertaining enuf. i certainly had fun.
and yeh good news that my story is back in momentum... has been delaying it so much this hols...... by pure laziness.. but once i started again... the joy of it is so great!!!
