*big wave to lu*
ZARD vocalist passed away a few days ago. after a fall in hospital where she was having treatment for endometrial cancer, aged 40.
i couldn't help humming MY FRIEND to myself again and again the past few days, planning to dig out my 3 sets of Slamdunk OST in collection... very soon.
the voice actor of dearest saitou-sama passed away last yr, last holiday i specially went and bought the complete kenshin anime set. probably the only extra i need now is seisouhen director's cut, starring half a minute of saitou-sama.
after exam there r a few animes & series I want to watch:
darker than black: squinty eyed expressionless chinese protagonist wearing long black overcoat.. + rie fu's beautiful ED... *double hearts*
Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto: wat a mouthful... but again squinty eyed protagonist in long black overcoat & cape... sword waving too... so yeh... my taste hardly ever deviates..
mawang: the tall skinny fox-like prince this time playing a lawyer with a dark past... *hearts*
the vineyard man & the upcoming 1st shop of coffee prince: the bright beautiful "bigong mama" is reali enjoyable too... *more hearts*
and also.. finishing off Rondo & Kazoku by my favourite Takenouchi Yutaka ^_____^
enuf procrastinating... ^_____^
gone.. & coming
Broca's atrophy
2day had an 2hr+ ecg lecture that finished at half past 6. the lecturer was so... brilliant... talked abt everything in such a fast-paced & logically accurate way.
and after the lecture brian made a reali brilliant comment: the lecturer could express his thoughts so well! almost as there is instant interaction btw his higher function centres and the broca area. unlike some smart ppl who probably can't reali express ideas well, and unlike politians who probably have overactive broca's, disconnected from their higher function centres.
so.. applying that idea to myself:
i prob have broca's atrophy, and repeated lack of use exacerbates the problem, and gradually the connection btw brocas & the higher function centres degenerate. >____<
on a side note... i've been watching "goong" in the past week... reali loved it.
especially the crown prince.. *hearts*
tall skinny fox-like guy who would look good even in pink dotty shirts is indeed... very enjoyable.
(remembering with much embarrassment i was telling angel earlier in the yr that girly tv shows abt teenage princes r so pointless) >_______<
so, yeh found it surprising i actually enjoyed such a brainless romantic show and the teenage prince so much.
quite glad of it actually, my almost non-existent youthful superficiality does have the ability to regenerate.
despite my harsh sceptical perspective of things & ppl overall.
so maybe i shouldn't lose hope of my brocas area afterall. with some persistent exercising, it may have the ability to regenerate its function as well.
fingers crossed. ^^
YST
in moments of impulsive procrastination I started to revise yoroiden samurai troopers.... >_______<
i watched it first wen i was grade 3 or 4...
i must admit i am still quite into these simple & hot-blooded stuff for kids...
i remembered saint seiya was on around the same time... which was also about ppl wearing robot armours and ppl fighting bad ppl... but I always preferred YST so much more,cos they don't have to fight each other like gladiators, and also the friendship among the five boys r depicted quite well.
and wen i was young i manage to remember the lyrics of OP & ED of YST correct to every japanese syallable...
wish i still have such memory now.. and can use it for med...
>_____<
anywayz back to do some study after prolonged procrastination.
no more grumbling
i suddenly realised i am not all that intolerant of ppl..
different ppl hav low tolerance threshold of different things...
just like i am not so sensitive abt indifference & being ignored, but my stomach would churn with nausea at invasiveness...even if its mere "perceived invasiveness".
anyway this is not the point of this blog.
today i just remember this corny martial arts saying in chinese: 人在江湖﹐身不由己.
rather pessimistic & inappropriate... to describe lives that should have been made fully purposeful by the Lord. but i do think it has a fraction of truth describing the current condition of many of us...
how many times i procrastinate out of apathy, how many times i study out of mere primitive reflex, rather than having placed my certainty & hope in the Lord?
many times, i must confess, many times.
it is scary to think there r stages in your life wen talking/sharing to ppl about your problem won't really help, but only stimulates ur increasingly uncontrollable desire to complain & grumble, wen u don't even have the time to go thru the full process of feeling stressed and fearful and crying over a situation and finally internalising it to cope...
and even more scary to think such a lifestyle soon will become the story of your life and be indefinitely prolonged for who knows how many years ahead.
Loving God please have mercy on us terrible people.
yet bits of happiness r still found everywhere around us, in the daily things of vulgar vitality:
eg. i am looking forward to see the wei look-alike at friday outpatients, after strong recommendation from tiff... LOL
and also looking back and remembering all the other interesting doctors: there was also a brian look-alike, a ken look-alike, and of course the not so often seen jeremy look-alike. ^____^
perhaps we can also look forward to spotting any possible andrew look-alikes, wan look-alikes, kev look-alikes or HC look-alikes in the near or far future...
and our lives r still coloured by these bits of vulgar but entertaining things.
i thank God
i drove for 6 wks.
din crash my car on any poles or trees, din crash into anyone else & no one else crashed into me.
and managed to drive thru the roads smoothly and din become a traffic hazard--
even wen not concentrating and sometimes driving pass traffic lights without realising if they r red or green.
so yes i thank God i din harm ppl and was not harmed in anyway myself.
and i am not trying to be funny. my driving is quite...bad.
i am glad to be back to taking buses next wk.
despite its frequent lateness.
I can prob stay up a bit late at nite and still get to austin the next morning while dozing off.
