This is Inoue-sensei's journal entry from 22nd of June.
I reali liked wat he wrote, hence posting the whole thing here as a keepsake.
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Feverish.
I think I've finally realized that it's impossible for me to continue to write every week. Hahaha...
A long time ago I wrote that "I started a diary. I'm going to keep writing in it..." , but I can't even remember how many days that lasted now.
I'm not writing it anymore of course.
I'm sorry.
I can't even respond to mail I've received in a timely manner.
I think I'll start by trying to update this column once every 2-3 weeks.
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About a week ago I developed a fever and was out of commision for 4-5 days straight.
But the hostpial I normally go to happened to be closed, so I ended up spending time with myself -- moaning and nursing a high fever.
There's no question that I was thankful that I normally have good health.
I was thankful that I could normally do what I wanted, and since I couldn't eat anything, also thankful for my food.
I was also thankful for my family who watched over me while I was helpless.
I also couldn't work as I had planned to, and I'm thankful for the help of the editors who came to check up on me and everyone else's help.
When I stumbled outside, perhaps because my senses had become acute, the
landscape of the city looked different.
It was stressful.
Tiring.
I saw a parade of many things of the type that people don't need to see - things that aren't good for you.
It brings a shiver to my spine when I think about how I can blissfully live in the midst of all of that.
I wonder if you get more sensitive with a high fever.
It was problematic that I was quickly moved to tears by small passages of writing, songs, and even some small piece of Vagabond that I had come up with.
The worst thing was when I picked up the newest work by Kiyoshi Shigematsu in a bookstore and just reading the tag line on the book lining brought tears to my eyes.
Even though I hadn't opened it yet...
But those few days were a rich chance for me to experience what it is like to rise up from nothing.
Since I started with nothing, I feel like I'm working up the energy to go forward.
... which I can say now that I'm better ...
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In other news, our website will also be availble in Korean starting in July.
I hope our Korean readers will look forward to it.
Annyeonghaseyo! Sojyujyuseyo.
INOUE TAKEHIKO
19 June 2007
from:
Inoue News
Inoue-sensei's diary
a holiday was a holiday
I think God meant a holiday to be a holiday.
in all aspects.
at the end of 1st wk new semester i am already stressed out...
felt like there r a million things need to be done. car broke down, mum is leaving for china again and dad probably wants proper food cooked everyday for the next 2 months while my timetable has at least a few late nights in the 1st month.
certain lady is bad at organisation and incapable of correcting her own mistake and so adamant that other ppl should live with it. and tutor is one stressful person whom i forsee can make me freak out and my broca to atrophy bad in at least some of the upcoming weeks.
early next yr elective trip finanical situation is not optimal and i really don't know if anything can be done about it.
BUT---
i have been researching abt the memorable nba players in the 80s & early 90s.
and Larry Bird was just awesome.
and that made me happy.
^_____^
and during elective times:
Irene can go to the US and watch an nba game for me and mail me a basketball.
and Jia Jia can travel to London Sherlock museum and buy me some sherlock souvenirs.
*drool*
LOL
just kidding.
I will always be looking forward to the day when I can visit these places myself and do all these things i would really really enjoy.
And I will look back to the entry at the end of the year to see wat amazing work God has done through all these.
holiday
I really thank God for a very wonderful holiday.
Reading abt history & culture in Baillieu EA collection, and writing AKIRA.
I started writing this fanfic this time last year.
with a stressful med yr in between, without God my inspiration for the plot would have run dry already...
it was such a great way for me to discipline my heart:
doing my best while relying on God for watever the product is.
(feel free to laugh at my obsession ^____^)
But God really blessed this and I reali thank Him for that.
Please continue to bless AKIRA. ^____^
and reading over the manga made me fall in love with Slamdunk all over again.
i do remember those years when i would laugh and cry over a slamdunk or a buzzer beater from the story.
I probably still would.
(everyone becomes reali disturbed and runs away.)
^____________^
Ganbatte for a new semester!
Belteshazzar
its been quite a while since i last wrote some thoughts from bible reading..
an interesting thought came to me as I read Daniel 1, regarding Belteshazzer:
Belteshazzer means "after the name of my god Bel", and is the babylonian name given to Daniel.
Daniel has said no to the royal food & wine, but not this insulting name.
There are more than enough reasons to say no to Belteshazzer, and absolutely Godly reasons too:
I would rather die a martyr than to be identified with this sinful idolatory!
or
My jewish name is God given and so important to me and my faith and I would not be defiled by such a name!
etc etc etc...
so wat is Godly & wat is not? if he has said those perfectly Godly words to refuse Belteshazzer and got killed, is he still the Godly prophet Daniel of Bible?
wat is Godly & wat is not?
watever Godly noble things we believe we are doing, are they reali Godly?
one question also lingered in my mind in the past few weeks:
wat is the difference between Dolly Carey & Harriet Shelley? and hence their respective husbands?
The family neglect part of the first husband's story is largely omitted, the purified story then transcribed onto many Christian newsletters & magazines as saintly encouragement to missionary workers.
And the second husband's story is used as an embodiment of sinful marital & family neglect, entering into an anthology of insight & reflections of sinners.
O___O
reali--
O___O
or should the doing "Godly" work part be the dividing line, be the right for omission or even justification of the unpleasant aspect of one's character?
then are we reali trying to say: the man is nothing--his work is everything.
we can be sure the Bible didn't say that, Flaubert did.
lets just say anyone mature in God won't think of Carey as a lesser man because it was found that he neglected his family.
Because we should know everyone is a sinner, and even the most holy of man is human.
And God forgives.
----and shelley's poetry is beautiful.
thoughts on some old but new anime
Buzzer Beater is going thru a 2nd animation...(how very painful)
the last one reali was bad... nothing like inoue-sama's beautiful story. >___<
i reali hope this one is going to be good, could show the world of the best hideyoshi, the best DT, and the beautiful red haired lady cha-che.
a new ova of EVA is still in the making i believe...
reali couldn't believe it has been ten years.
i still remember so clearly the time i first saw ayanami-hime's icy blue hair, & became instantly lovestruck because of that icy unhuman voice.
*hearts*
utada hikaru is singing the new EVA theme, as well as revising (again) sinatra's fly me to the moon.
*more hearts*
saiyuki reload burial is also abt to be released soon.
wen i was in high school, i find saiyuki the coolest thing in the world...
no longer so... but i must admit sanzo is still a very cool guy.
