Well lets talk about happy stuff...
the very wonderful Fukuyama Masaharu... as mentioned many times before in my blogs...
lovely prof Galileo turns 40 this year. really looking forward to his Yogisha X no Kenshin--The Sacrifice of Suspect X. =D
next... Muroi-san!!! played by Yanagiba Toshiro. hmm... quite.. old and ugly but i still love Muroi-san from Odoru Daisousasen. =D
next... a recent obsession. Sakai Masato is so beautiful in period dramas... here is him on the left, playing the most memorable Okita Souji in "When the Last Sword is Drawn".
and lastly... my most favourite Maya Miki: 
she is so beautiful and talented... *starry eyes* and she is 44, her favourite pastime is eating hotpot... O.O i wish i can look half as beautiful as her even now...
dreaming to be such a beautiful aunty wen i am middle-aged.. =D
Happy stuff--Nippon Fever 2
Masako says...
Masako is the female alter-ego of Fukuyama Masaharu... famous jap singer and actor who runs his own radio show... sometimes speaks in a womanly voice as "Masako" to answer questions exclusively from female audiences. =D
sounds disturbing yeh?
but apart from his talents, hes also a person reali serious about life, who never went to uni in his youth but still able to have such honest and meaningful insights about many things...
and someone I really respect.
my favourite and most memorable masako saying:
a 28yo female tells Masako: I am scared that I will always be single, i really hope to marry soon...
Masako says: If you can use your own hard-earned money, do things you would like to do yourself, this is really, "happiness" to a degree.
After you are attached, your life will be differnt.
Why always worry about not getting married? You should enjoy singlehood while you can.
It will be great if you can really appreciate and grasp this kind of happiness.
So when you are attached in the future, you can enjoy another kind of happiness.
very touched...
this especially coming from the most handsome single man in japan... *hearts*
see more of what Masako says at: http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/dpanhk/
Accounts of a Rebellious Heart
Talking about myself being bad after I have been bad... is a good coping mechanism. At least I have the sense of security that "i am not bad at the present".
LOL
to be quite honest i have become increasingly not accepting of many things... things i used to listen and just accept as right I now have many doubts and objections and really wonder how can people treat such serious matters as mere mockery...
but i am so ignorant myself... the only thing i can do is trust and pray.
a month or so ago a friend from KM cried to us for help as a family relative fell gravely ill... as a gd enthusiastic Christian I offered to pray and said all the comforting words i could say...with great certainty. o.O but as the relative's condition deteriorates despite our prayers... I found myself ineffectual...hesitant...without words to say...and wen i was told abt the relative's passing away... the only thing i replied was: I really don't know wat i can say now... -___-|||||
after that my spirit felt very poisoned and during the same wk the chinese experienced a frenzy regarding the "five congenital infections" and i felt if i say one word wrong the friendship i built up over the yrs would be gone in a puff...
so.. for a week or so i sank low in my own emotional trauma and thought prayer doesn't do anything and ignored God.
After recovering from my own frenzy I was hit with the insight---
that wen we pray its not that we have more special connections with a powerful deity so we could gain whatever we wish for.
we pray because we admit we do not know... we admit we are not going to have inside knowledge about anyone's future, we admit we are so weak that we could not influence others or even change ourselves, and we admit that we really know too little about the pains and troubles of the world.
But we trust someone knows and loves.
nothing more to say:
Thank God for His mercy.
and I hope i will have an opportunity to explain and say sorry to ppl... -___-|||
