antibiotics, anhedonia, ugly uncles... and the rest

I am back.
Whenever i think of those words, the image of red haired kenshin smiling under a bright blue sky always appears before my eyes.
the shanghai church I used to go to was renovating and temporarily closed, and kinder friend is away in the US, so i went to another church.
It was such a good church.
over 2 weeks I heard 2 pastors preaching really insightful life-related sermons. this is like the first time i heard china pastors preaching insightful sermons.
I was so amazed.
and the church has really clean toilets. many aunties in the toilet were saying with great satisfaction: hey the toilet here is really good...blah blah... :D
who knows? who knows if someone would come to church... for the clean toilets?


Abuse
to save family from fear anxiety and bad mood following any minor sickness i squandered money and excessively self-medicated traditional anti-inflammatories +/- antibiotics at the earliest sign of a mucousy throat throughout my stay in china.
and i didnt get a cold.
and family was happy.
and because of that i am happy, in my sense of achievement, like an absolute medical illiterate.

Anhedonia
my local hairdresser was handsome and looked alot like leehom, and he was friendly and kind and flattered me saying i looked only 20...
but i was scared of being ripped off and lied through my teeth telling him i was pov and from kunming... o.O
and i was too anhedonic to establish any meaningful conversation despite all his sweet talking efforts.

when i walked out from my home in shanghai there was always a group of neighbouring old ladies sitting outside gossiping/cleaning veggies/enjoying the wintry sun.
i disliked them cos i was too anhedonic to greet gossiping strangers and be friendly to them everytime i walked out of my house.
but when i dragged my luggages out on the last day the group of them sitting there all warmly waved me goodbye, even the ones i never bothered to look or smile at.
i was touched, and felt bad.

i think anhedonia is a bad thing.

Ugly uncles
i think i am falling in love with chinese historical dramas again.
over the years i became very disillusioned with those, when they invariably attempted to paint emperor characters as heroes, portraying dictating self-righteousness as a majestic air, and cruel stupid sacrifice of their subordinates as intelligent noble necessity.
completely lacking the humane touch and interesting characters of jap taiga dramas.
but this time i watched a good one... a really good one.
and i watched 50 episodes in 3 days.
i became interested in this series because one of my favourite uncle actors was playing the genius prime minister and his rich scholarly girlfriend was played by one of my favourite actresses.
well might give it a try just to watch the cute couple, as i thought.

the story turned out to be surprisingly engaging, history simple but not downgraded, details and dialogues made so interesting that even my grandma enjoyed the political and military stuff in the series.
most importantly, the king character, who unconditionally supported the prime minister, was surprisingly sincere, honest and convincing.
he was played by a really ugly uncle actor who used to play handsome & morally suspicious businessman characters in many series, hence i disliked him.
but now i am all hearts over the ugly king, and his smart ascetic girlfriend.
when a chinese historical drama is good... nothing can compare.

the genius prime minister
the ugly uncle king

Red Cliff
New year i watched Red Cliff I on TV...
surprisingly good. so glad i didnt miss it.
I resisted seeing it cos I could not accept the idea of Takeshi Kaneshiro playing Zhuge liang. To me he's the typical brainless handsome man who can never handle such a genius character.
yet he was beyond my expectation. by the end of the movie he convinced me that he was Zhuge liang.
much better than tony leung, despite his frequent appearances and that revitalised face, could not convince me that he was Zhou yu.
and i cringed every time he was going mushy with that taiwanese lady. they must be one of the most horrid screen couples.
but but... to my joy... i saw the lovely ugly king again in Red Cliff :D he was playing Lu su, the Waston-like good-hearted sidekick to Zhou yu, who's also kind and friendly to Zhuge liang. *all hearts again*
Really looking forward to Red Cliff II, and hoping for the unlikely opportunity to see it somewhere on big screen.

KIDS
when i was straightening my hair and feeling rather anhedonic, this little glasses boy sat down opposite me.
his mother was busy doing hair and just left him in the hands of the hairdressers, who left him there for like 20mins+...
he has really high rising eye brows which gave him a perpectual startled lost expression on him face...
poor kid...
he was really shy... hesitated lots and spoke very little as the hairdresser asked him questions. only when the hairdresser was about to start his job the boy finally said some words...
surprisingly clear... stating wat he wanted with a very professionally hairdressing, almost anatomical term...
everyone who heard it was rather impressed.
he was unmoved, went back to his silent startled face.
*all hearts*
i used to think only stupid binge-eating kids are cute.
now i've changed my mind. smart kids can be really cute too.

the olympics lip syncing girl now does many ads.
she has the most sickening attention-seeking smile on her face.
everytime i see her on tv i want to hit her.
maybe i have the potential to be a child abuser. o.........O

Suspect X
My face was beaming with love when i saw the cover of "yougisha X no kenshin" in the bookshop.
could not believe i finally own a copy of it.
raced home with excitement, read it over and over again.

when i read it first i felt no sympathy towards ishigami-sensei.
only the noble words of yukawa-sensei touched me.
this time as i read it again and again, i suddenly found Ishigami-sensei really touching as well,
as he is meant to be.

things-to-get
i thought for many years: when i get my first salary the first thing i will go and buy is a set of annotated sherlock holmes.
as this day draws close, i guess i have to decide that there are much more important things to do, much more important stuff to buy.
so dear sherlock has to wait a while more.
and after sherlock...
i will buy non-pirated masha CDs & DVDs... and other favourites...
and...
and...
and...
I have alogia, avolition, anhedonia... and zero confidence.
and I start working the day after next.
>___<
ganbatte ne to myself.