Parting song

I always really liked the ending theme from Dae Jang Geum:
o na ra o na ra a ju o na
伊人欲來 何時歸來
ka na ra ka na ra a ju ka na
伊人欲去 何時離去
na na ni ta ryo do mou no na ni
我欲乘風飛翔 卻遍尋不著伊人蹤影
a ni ri a ni ri a ni no ne
伊人何在 留我獨自失落
he i ya di i ya he i ya na ra ni no
唉喲 這該如何是好
o ji do mo ta na ta ryo ka ma
伊人你若不歸 請帶我一起離去
he i ya di i ya he i ya na ra ni no
唉喲 這該如何是好
o ji do mo ta na ta ryo ka ma
伊人你若不歸 請帶我一起離去

And someone commented about the song which i think is so true:
歌詞表達出一種意境:
因為人們來過此地,所以不是永遠停留此地;
因為人們離開此地,所以不是永遠離開此地...
正如這齣戲所隱含的主題,放掉人生不必要的執著,謙遜地接受人生真實面:
人生的起起落落,生和死....
Translating for those whose computer not chinese supported:
the song is basically saying:
because ppl come here... thats why they don't stay here forever;
because ppl leave and go away, thats why they don't stay away forever.
(sori......... seems the chinese makes more sense than my translation)

disturbed.....

at irene's request, i am doing another post...*grin*
talked with grandma this morning..... had my dose of Shanghainese anecdotes.
one story concerns a boy mathematician in primary school who wins lots of maths olympiad prizes... one day he was absent from school and the rest of the class asked the teacher: why is he absent 2day?
the teacher told them that the boy's grandpa passed away and he had to attend the funeral.
Then the whole class started clapping in joy
one of the boys said: finally his grandpa(who was a university maths professor) died! now no one can teach him maths anymore and he will become all crap!
Very disturbed kids...

WORRYLESS

in the computer lab b4 pbl...... can't find any robbins and forgot to bring the one i had at home...... so decided to just write a post.
checked my mail and read the deep touching 32kb email by jia jia...... got very very touched, by her thankfulness, her joy and also the wonderful grp of 'US'...... almost in such a pessimistic way... that such happiness, such closeness, such friendship that we all shared are so rare and precious and that it won't last long...
but even though we r going our separate ways.... and things will never be the same again, we still have the memory of the 2.5 yrs of fun and joy, and its a period of time we can look back and never regret yeh?
i still remember sometime last wk, when the grp of us who normally have to be scattered in seating b/c we r too big a grp.... actually managed to find seats that r 2gether in 3 rows...
while seating there... seeing jeremy, kevin and hc harrassing bei on the left..... dora taking foto with her beloved camera in front..,. andrew and ken sharing their sweet joke of 2 behind, and ff munching on her fav pickle and pork bun on my rite... that moment i was just so overwhelmed by a sense of security and happiness....
i love the word "worryless", because none of us can live in this world worryless....
because we can let the joys and laughters, albeit on small things.... take over the imperfection, the disappointments, the anxiety, the worries we had, and the joys went on to infest the rest of US.
i think, even in the years to come, when life will pressurise us more and more...
i will still be able to remember the stupid things we did, and our classic line----
DON'T WORRY.

Crazy Song

Got my blood test result back.... all clear... very joyous...for some reason just felt like spending money, so after getting off tram got heaps of breadtop home to share with mum....... just to discover that she is cooking heaps 2nite.... *sigh* lol
more amazing about yth grp.... just learnt yesterday that the program was changed from a Revelation study to a speaker.... which in my opinion definitely could be more SEEKER-friendly.... ^0^ will keep on praying! ^0^
and last clinical placement.... the very last patient we saw.. has bipolar disorder( aka maniac depression) who refused to see a psychiatrist or a psychologist.
very successful ceo of a company... travelled around the world... even went to shanghai and took the bullet train, and he also went on and on about his house and the apartment he bought...
and when the doctor asked him when can you slow down and take care of urself? He went: the day i die. sori this is just my personality doc.. i can't slow down...
then he went on about how he is actually in control... holding himself 2gether... using buddhist philosophy, which gave him a very holistic healthy mind... while us...... the spectators of the room just felt like we r watching a show..... and the person is so pathetic that he din know how sad he is...
the question still is: what can we do about him?
nothing..... the doctor said.. since we can't convince him, and he is still doing what he is doing, we can only leave him like that.... just give him some anxiolytic.... and have our fingers crossed that he won't go bankrupt or that we won't get any suicide notice.......
how many ppl in this world are like him? motivated, gd in career, successful.. yet so miserable? and more disturbing how many of us are going down this path?
and what can we do about them?
which we prob need to spend a whole life learning about.
God bless and take care everyone.

P.T.L.

When i was downloading manga 2day suddenly got a fone call.... 1st wasn't sure who called... then realised its 1st yr uni gal who's a family friend's daughter... i helped her a bit with umat and study skills during her exam period, haven't contacted her at all after her yr 12 exam... so thought its just so "RANDOM" that she contacted me again...
the reason why she called was just amazing... 1 minute into the fone call she was like: i heard u go to church, can you bring me to church sometime? *though still sounding polite and calm.... yn's heart already underwent binary fission and went flying around the whole room* ^0^
like the term we like to use..... it just sounds so "RANDOM" to me...
then i talked to her mum.... who said her daughter after going to uni starts to get very interested in Christianity.... she mention once about wanting to know more about Christian stuff several wks ago...... and her mum was like: oh yeh she's just saying it.... but then she mentioned to her mum again yesterday, and her mum was like: man she is actually serious! then her mum was like: hey doesn't yi ning go to church all the time? why dun u call her?
*heart still in binary fission mode*
This definitely is not RANDOM... God planned it..... her friends who r Christians may have been praying for her, evangelising her..... but its just so amazing how God can work wonders even through secular interactions btw ppl!
More amazing is that since last wk my mum has been very worried abt my health and decided to ban me from late nite going outs.... last wk didn't go to yth grp.... has been worried for quite a while whether she will be ok with me bringing up going to yth grp again......
but here we r.... the gal wants to come to yth grp, and mum was like: oh yeh bring her this Saturday!
I don't know what to say about His plan.
Praise the Lord.

Feeling: Winter

The weather has finally cooled down..... now at last some feel that deep autumn and early winter is fast approaching.... my favourite season.^0^ love the cool clear air.... the gentle yet distant warmth of the wintry sun...
Yesterday found a new novel by Eileen Chang at the library...... 1st almost thought it was a fake... yet realised with great delight that its actually a story never published b4! The same old laughable yet melancholic feel... definitely her style.
The last 2 wks felt very long..... did hardly anything..... now majorly need to catch up on studying... for those who know about my massive teenage obsession.... well i am a bit hooked onto Slamdunk again.
When i was in my most prostrate anxious state i opened the pages of a Slamudnk manga..... and funny thing..... how i felt most vulnerable yet comforted.. by a comic...
In high school days when i read Slamdunk i am often struck by a sense of guilt as in it may seem laughable how i am so obsessed with cartoons..... but now i could simply say... even Slamdunk, is what God has blessed me with. 1 Corithians 10:31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
God has been so merciful... in difficulties and desperation He grew me... The prayer i prayed last Sunday... Lord i am so scared..... i really can't feel your presence... but i am still going to say... You will never abandon me... i really don't think this is doing me any good... but i am still going to say... You are full of goodness and You blessed me.
The very first time i prayed like this... completely disregarding my feelings... In short He grew my faith and drew me closer.
Finally I really thank Him for my wonderful friends... when I am weak, paranoid, prostrate... u are so concerned for me, so patient, and so diagnostic(especially sally*cough*)! ^0^ In high school i sometimes get bored and frustrated thinking: why can't my high school life be as exciting as Slamdunk?
But now i realise... u guys have really been the Slamdunk to me... (lol from me this is the highest compliment^^) My uni life has been so good because of u all.
All for the glory of God.
Agape,