The beautiful love and patience

mite take sally's grumpy idea and put up a grumpy post so i can get lots of grumpy comments from grumpy ppl......LOL sori just kidding....
holiday just make me very sleepy.... yesterday slept for 8 hrs at nite...and then had a quality 2 hr nap in the afternoon. Maybe my body is trying to fuel up to prepare me for next sem... *shudder*... so how come my brain doesn't hav this automated function that can prepare me for next sem intelluctually? LOL
bought a dig cam on sunday.... 300ish.. very cheap sony cybershot 4.1... haha.. reali just for convenience. so all the bdays and wedding and events i can take gd foto and keep... take bad foto and delete.... and i won't hav to shock ppl with the big bright flash from my mum's piece of 1980s antique....
watched too much sherlock these days.. now keep on putting my finger in front of my lips in that sherlockian pose....subconsciously....
received an email back from the lady in charge of our kids church... understanding as usual about my absence this saturday for the kids church meeting... I remember me myself starting teaching at kids church completely not sure how to teach kids and just grabbed myself in stage fright.. mumbling away at something no kids can understand..yet she never said anything... just kept on encouraging me... giving me more responsibilities gradually...
i remember this year once in kids church 2 boys misbehaved so much that even one of the teachers got frightened... she wasn't angry or annoyed, then her own daughter who was sitting in at kids church went to her crying... saying her eyes hurt alot... her anxiety wan't on her face... she went searching for her husband... after settled the kids under control..., while she is still worried about her daughter.. a little girl broke down crying in the middle of a teaching session saying she can't understand eng and wants to find her mummy whose in the main service... she wasn't frustrated... or panicking. Organised 2 teachers to look after the girl.. she drew the attention of the class back to lessons until the service finished...
i reali don't remember seeing her angry or annoyed for even once... even for the numerous times when i can't keep my commitments at kids church... she is always understanding...
Patience may be her nature.... but how did she acquire it? genetics? environment? i am sure an environment like kids church is prob the most hectic and noisy area of the church that is not reali producing peace...
A close walk with God... and the willingness to work hard, to struggle for this patience and peace... and the faith that keep her going in one struggle, one crisis after another...
And the love... the love in her heart for the kids and also for the teachers... When u love someone to an extent of wanting their attention and commitment..... u love them very much... But when u love them to the extent that when they hav commitment clashes btw u and something else... they would feel comfortable enough to compromise the one with you.... knowing ur love allow them to do that... u love them even more....
thats the God-send unconditional love.... and i can see God's perfection reflected on her... such love motivates us wanting to serve better at kids church. She is leaving this year for another church.. but the valuable lessons she has taught me just by herself as a person during the 2 yrs...i will never forget...
And we teachers all depend on God's strength and mercy to bear the responsiblities and keep the kids church running this year... Can we ever hav this same love in our service?
my prayer to our Lord this year is to let Him shape me more into someone with such love and patience in her heart....that even distresses.... cannot remove my peace.
Amen.