my student is moving house 2day.... so found out with quite a bit of excitement that he doesn't want tutoring 2nite...
managed even to squeeze some time and did some immuno... forgot everything abt the 6 pages of innate after 2 wks desertion... so had to go bk and start over again....LOL When i am full-on chilling out at home its seems almost absurd that i can find time to read med.... but once i got full-on busy and then suddenly got sth cancelled.... time felt like a bonus. and i felt there r so much i can do in this time!
and yup... even hav time to come online though i said i wont... rite choice. saw Wendy who just came bk from Shanghai.. after 2 months not catching up... *sob sob* and had a great time chatting. *grin grin*
blog 2day concerning work and some of my thoughts related...
as u know jap takeaways always sell this jap vegetable pancake thats pan fried(soaked in quite a bit of oil i tell u)...Well 2day this lady came up to me and asked me wat oil is the pancake fried in? took me a while to understood her question, and i thought she was a vegetarian so i told it is indeed veg oil..
then she went on trying to tell me the reason she asked was because she's on a diet... (someone on a diet wanting to eat an oil soaked pancake.. and still asking me whether its veg oil??)
my expression at that time was pretty much: 'if u r on a diet go home and chew on ur celery'... and 'stop yupping on when i have 10 more customers to serve....' Got very mean spirited indeed.....*sigh*
that just took my thoughts back to medicine... When i operate under pressure...... and when icm's political correctness no longer have an effect on me..... and when i see a patient in consulation who try to pour out some ludicrous grievances while i hav a line of patients waiting who i know i can be of more help too.... will i be impatient and get mean like i did with the pancake lady?
I can almost imagine myself facing an angry disruptive old guy in hospital.. with the kind of look that wil say: If u don't like hospital treatments then go home and die and give the bed to someone who needs it more.
i reali don't know... how does patience work when there is a difference in importance involved.... but i believe as time goes by... God will put more wisdom in my heart about how can i deal with it..... and He will train up my patience too.
I wil continue ask Him about that... and any of u hav thoughts plz share. ^^
A joyful break + patience issue
Posted by
YN
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
3 comments:
hey yn ;p am sori haven't been online l8ly, haven't read ur blog, haven't talked 2 u on msn... (and u 2, kolin)... - still in perth, be back soon ;p
hehe, yah, it's a tough question - abt patience and things... the funny thing, trying to work out whether the feeling of anxiety/impatience is really jus that (impatience) or whether it's truly reflective of one's concern to attend to matters that are really more important... i think, to be discerning, u jus need a clear and trusting mind... and i'm sure u already have this, and i'm sure that u actually dealt very well with the "pancake lady", even if u had antagonistic thoughts running thru ur head...
often - i think the truth is that there's no clear answer - and there's no reason to start thinking about "what if?!?" because that can sometimes lead to unnecessary doubt... simply trust that u did what u did for the right reasons... - there are other cases where u clearly feel the spirit of impatience/anxiety welling up inside and it affects ur decisions... in that case, u can't trust ur decision, but don't despair... u will learn to control it, for the Holy Spirit is more powerful...
anywayz, i think u don't have to worry, trust in God, have faith that everything shall be done according to God's will, and u have every reason to be content at all times... ;p and enjoy the rest of the holiday time u have when u're not working!!!
God bless,
dave
Hey YN,
Something I find helpful in these situations is to remember that Jesus loves every single person - even those who are old, grumpy, annoying, disruptive, etc, etc....! =p So sometimes, that helps remind me how important it is to treat everyone with gentleness, love and respect... even when it's hard for us to.
=p Sally
Yeh, favouritism. At my work, I favour certain clients too. Haha... (I dunno if we're talking about the same thing.) Thanks for reminding. God loves all and equally. So we must all do the same. Sometimes, we judge people too early. Who are we do access who is more important in a hospital setting? All lives are equal.
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