Had a hectic week... many friends see me and just go... 'chill, yi ning, chill...' haha.... not that bad actually. ^0^ most time when i say stuff i am half joking half serious.
saved up for my airfare at the end of the year. ^0^ basically can quit job anytime now if i want to... just thought i should be nice and help my boss out a bit.... hopefully not for 2 long......*sob*
We got a new gal at work... she looks so adorable!!! the 1st day when she came training... i asked her: u r still in high school yeh?
And the answer..
she said: i already finished uni! i am 24 now!
i can do nothing but faint... if she told me she is 14 i would have believed... so youthful...
The ODB on Thursday was a reali good one.. about a rapist and murderer who sets up a file recording all his crimes.. and the password of the file is: GODHELP.
That day i was seriously stressed out... got very impatient during prac when our tutor was running late...and was so unenthusiastic abt doing the prac... Only got a bit cheered up when Adrian and Angel got me to visit their new place... and saw how nice it is...
then went to Southland and got all ready for work.. really not in the mood for it.. so i sat down on a bench.. and prayed.. "God help me to be patient and not be grumpy to my customers!!!"
Suddenly the thought came to me: if i just pray so half heartedly.. knowing i will still be impatient at demanding customers... I am reali nothing different from the rapist who sets his password GODHELP and then still go away committing all those hideous crimes..
so i reali sat down... closed my eyes and prayed... fully focusing on God to grow me reali in patience through work...
Nothing grandiose.. my friends... but when i opened my eyes i know its different.. God gave me the strength of self control.
I was patient at work. ^0^
Weekly reflections....
On with the motley!!!
a bit tired 2day... student freaked out abt physics sac.. so went out to tutor again at 2 45 when just got home and had lunch by 2... *sigh*
Uni 2moro! but quite some relief to know that Chris is not coming back until the 16th.. so dun have to worry about how to celebrate his 21st.. or wat to get for him till later...... Phew......
2day is Chinese money deity's day... ^0^ wish everyone lots of money.. LOL (those who want to stay poor go for it.. ^0^) And wish everyone an early happy Valentine's day... Especially for S & D! ^0^
After the good wishes comes the sad news... everyone now pull ur tissues out and ready for some fake sobbing... hehehe... And just want all of u to enjoy the last post on the blog!
made this decision quite some time ago... but since i always love a touch of the dramatic... i've decided not to break this news to any of u until 2day.. hehehehe..
reali thankful about the 3 month or so of blogging... helped me to reflect and meditate more... some posts reali good for my spiritual life... and also... so thankful to all of u who supported me and read my boring posts and left wonderful comments... Used this blog to keep in touch with some of u... and also used thise to know a few of u better! I really really thank God for this blessing!*sob sob sob*
all sobbing now?? good i am happy about the effect.. ^0^
LOL no way so dramatic la...
this is just an announcement that my post wil be quite infrequent from now on.... so don't come to me and say.. how come u r not blogging anymore???? i will.. 1nce a month?? or when i get some really good inspirational reading and thoughts??? LOL
so meanwhile... have lots of fun... catch u guys on msn... and...
On with the motley!!
lots of love from YN
H for HoushinEngi
Thanx to Dave and Yi Wei who gave nice and long comments for my sibling post.. LOL Very interesting.
dave... i can give u my word that i wasn't thinking about u when i said that... and i mean.. i know sally.. not ur family... so if u r 100% focused on her i will just be happier for her....LOL i can see u still think about ur fam a lot and try to do the rite things.. so yep.. keep up the good work and take it easy! ^0^
well... decided to do one more anime commentary.. Houshinengi.. the jap remix of chinese classic 封神演義. 1st read a bit of the manga in yr 10.. didn't interest me too much.... but then watched the anime.. majorly simplifed but in my opinion much better than the complication of the manga...
just decided to write this.. for all the unforgettable ppl of HE:
Taikobou (白痴道士太公望)
i just love Taikoubou so much! ^0^ the very funny protagonist! always there to crack a silly laugh... always there to act stupid.. always slacking off when he can.. and yet having firm belief about his mission.. always so selflessly caring about people and friends.. so humble yet so powerful and having amazing strength.
Youzen (天才道士楊戩)
Youzen has an inferiority complex in the manga... which i didn't thinnk was depicted successfully... in anime his character was simpler but cuter.. the handsome genius type... always cool to look at in battles... yet he learnt so much from the famous "idiot" Taikoubou... ironic isn't it?
Kou Tenka (劍客黃天化)
Tenka was my fav character in the manga b/c he died in the end...*sob* so sad... while i didn't have to shed so much tears for taikobou.. in anime he didn't die!! ^0^ similar personality... carefree, fearless, read to fight.. very cool attitude.
Nataku (哪吒)
Nataku always looks a bit stiff and slow... but to look beyond his expressionless face.. he is sensitive, caring for friends.. and he loves his mum so much... so adorable.....^^
Kihatsu (周王姬發)
Kihatsu was the destined king of the new dynasty Shuu (real historical figure)... in manga he was a bit of a womaniser.. anime again made his character simpler.. just a good, brave, responsible prince who has a bit of a temper.. but then battles... father's words and death... bent him and prepared him to be a good king.
Bunchuu (太師聞仲)
the minister of the opposing force... one of my fav character in manga as well... *died in the end no surprise* but in anime i like him even better! And he didn't die! He was like this loner who guarded the In dynasty for hundreds of years... until he befriended Hiko.. then having to fight enemy within and without of his beloved dynasty...in manga He and Hiko's friendship ended badly.. *sob* in anime he focused his fights on Dakki the villain.. and didn't reali fight the good guys.. which is SMART.. and His frienship with Hiko stayed till the end... AWWWWWW.......
Kou Hiko (黃飛虎)
Tenka's dad, and Bunchuu's best friend. used to be commander of the In dynasty... then a tragedy caused by the villain turned him towards the Shuu... in the anime although there was a time of tension... in the end.. He and Bunchuu still were willing to give life for each other fighting a common enemy.. and remained best friends.. So cool!
Finally....
my favourite out of the favourites...
Suupuu!(四不象)
Taikoubou's riding animal.. who reali adores his master.. cares for him.. and in the end of the anime... sacrificed his life protecting his master..(dun worry he came back to life again ^0^)
how i wish i can have a Suupuu.. and ride him everyday to uni.. *sob*
thankful
Sat nite... finished work... finished tutoring.. now trying to relax before i have to prepare for kids church stuff..
boss was having an anxiety attack at work... cos we r majorly short of people.... i was thinking that to say i quit now is pretty bad... so i actually told him i am free friday afternoon even though i hav pbl..... but for some reason he didn't put me there! Praise the Lord! i was so happy that i dun have to skip anything.....
looking bk to this hols.. although i am like majorly tired with commitments.. although my job is not so well paid.. its far and i get bathed in oil everyday.. but I am just so thankful.. that i hav a job... boss is nice... working enviro friendly.. and seriously... very glad that as a med student who start early at irregular times... fixed timetables... and lots of can'ts... boss still allow me to work.....
sibling fights....
lots of thoughts in the past 2 days... but didn't hav time to put them down... and now i either forgot wat i was going to say... or no longer in the mood of it.. *sob sob sob..... wa........*
working again 2moro... then my student called... and needed more help so organised a time with him 2moro nite.. hopefully my mind will stil be functioning at the time.. me tutoring physics... madness absolute madness....
at work i always have this horrid fascination about disruptive and demanding kids.. 2day saw 2 brothers.. one 3ish the other 5ish?? the mum was buying a plate of food.. and got 2 forks...... so sharing with one of the kid??? not too sure.. but the younger one start to protest so loudly.. a face so bitter crying... and the older one was grabbing onto the food... refusing the younger one to touch.. then the younger one got physical and start to pull and hit the older bro.. and the older bro blocked the plate of food with his body... with a face so selfishly crossed... the mum has to get the plate and hold it high up... i reali think a life with 2 kids like that is living hell....
man i just love to see their faces so angry and bitter... with "me me me" all written over it.. *sigh i am so twisted am i?* ^^
being the only child i never knew wats it like to have siblings and have sibling fights... i dunno.. did all of u who hav bro and sis have such fights when u were young???
when ppl ask me the qn: if u can choose to have a sibling wat would u like? (which is quite often) i have my planned answers....
my first pref is older sis. ^0^ always feel close with friends who r older female...especially shanghainese friends... i stil rem the time when i got a mentor from Christian Union... Mary.... who is fellow med.. fellow ex-plcer... shanghainese. and really nice and caring... *yn's tears stream down like seaweed* so from the very start i just got close with her... of course, it was like 'dream come true'! ^0^
2nd pref younger bro.. *weird choice heh?* lol that comes from my plc friend carrie.. who always talk about her funny bro.. and from also my cousin... so immature... 1 month into uni.... one day home he told his mum how many girls try to chat up to him.. and send him mushy sms.. then his mum told my dad about it.. then my dad told me.. and i was like laughing till my stomach was in pain..
dunno why... just think a younger bro like that is so adorable...
dunno wat to decide btw younger sis and older bro... just felt it reali scary if younger sis get competitive.. and older bro won't reali care about u or family once he has a gf....
yes... i will dream on.......hahah....
work and the associated
Working again 2day... boss gave us red packets. ^0^ awwww..... quite happy b/c of that. ^^ but was so tired at work... neck hurts reali bad.... and when i was getting sushis i noticed my hand has tremor...... *scary* now prob wil go and revise sem 4.... LOL
now sitting in front of computer and in complete relaxation mode... feeling better.
primary school frnd sent me an email.. ^^ in english... and gave me a quote from Russel.. The good life as I conceive is as a happy life. I do not mean if you're good you'll be happy---- I mean if you're happy you'll be good.----
the quote itself is rather doubtful.. but then she went on saying: i know u r happy at the moment as i am happy so we are both good. ^0^
Simple but very sweet. *hearts flying around*
LOL more light hearted stuff to share with u all: 2day someone at work picked up a wallet from a toilet.. and since i got off work at 3 i offered to bring it to the central management. Grabbing it straight after work i headed to the management desk.. and told the lady 'found this in a toilet'.
the lady at the desk gave me a very interesting look.. can't really describe it... then she went through the wallet and said.. 'yeh.. a guy came before looking for it, thank you.'
then i suddenly realised why she gave me that look...
she either thinks that i visit the male toilet frequently and think its normal... or she thinks the guy who lost his wallet goes to female toilets...
*yn's facial expression became all distorted at that moment* >_<
*sigh* better choose my words more carefully next time i talk to ppl.. and be more specific... eg. 'one of my colleague found this in a toilet'............*more sighs*
Happy Chinese New Year!
Just want to wish everyone a happy Chinese New Year! Lots of money and prosperity. ^0^ haha... sif....
Made egg dumplings... although mum is in control of the kitchen i am the official egg dumpling maker every year. LOL does every family make egg dumplings during chinese new year? why do we make egg dumplings?? probably its all nice and yellow and remind ppl of gold?? LOL
a sweet old couple living nearby made potato salad for us... lots of mayonnaise i am sure.... after seeing how our boss made mayonnaise in the shops whenever i see anything associated with mayonnaise my facial expression just went very distorted.... haha.^0^
Anyway, won't write too much... getting ready to eat. ^0^ *joyful joyful*
beautiful presence... (and good eats)
Carrie was sick 2day... *sob* so went to Life Witness course by myself..... Before i went i was feeling so tired... and almost didn't feel like going. But the last lesson of the course was really good.. talking about following up and care for the spiritual babies after evangelisation. although its not really what u call new revelations... but like the speaker said, faith and a passion to do His work was re-affirmed. ^0^
Sat beside a reverend during the course... and got really inspired too. To think that he is reverend.. he would have known about evangelising and witnessing so well... but he still sat there... with a humble spirit that radiates out.. listening attentively to the speakers' words.... taking diligent notes.. I just got so touched by the beautiful and humble presence there which really... is a reflection of Jesus' beauty.
other things happened 2day... LOL tutored my student... and after tutoring went to the chinese book shelves in the library... found a book called Shanghai's Best Eats--
so I sat there reading the book and drooling at the same time at all the pictures for at least half an hour... *took note of several good places i didn't know before*. hehe.. next time i go back will try them all..hehehehehe... *YN in over-excited mood* LOL
sincere but not simple
been a while since i posted......had been so busy.... but finally have some time.... and got all nocturnal again. LOL
i always consider myself immune to all personality tests.... due to an overwhelming confidence that i know myself so well..... and as if wat u said is going to be me....
but the other day when i read a passage in God's Treasury of Virtues... i was like.. that is just describing me...
Simplicity is an uprightness of soul that has no reference to self; it is different from sincerity; and it is a still higher virtue. We see many people who are sincere, without being simple; they only wish to pass for what they are, and they are unwilling to appear what they are not. they are always thinking of themselves, measuring their words, and recalling their thoughts, and reviewing their actions, from the fear that they have done too much or too little. These persons are sincere, but they are not simple....
-Archbishop Fenelon, "True and False Simplicity"
i feel that is so me...... always so careful about the things i do..... >_<
Praying and relying on God to shape me though i am so imperfect now....
I for Integra
Today was selling sushis as usual... when a customer came... and looked exactly like Integra... the same ash blonde hair... long face, blue eyes, and glasses, the glasses! *got very excited* the only setback being she was wearing a singlet rather than the khaki suit... *sob* More disappointing was that her bf looked nothing like Alucard... lol Why would any sane decent human beings look like Alucard anyway for that matter...
well been a while since i did any anime commentary... jumping to H gives me my fav anime Hellsing... (there is an ongoing manga for it but very crude and whimsical...) While the anime is really very well plotted... that although the anime only have 13 episodes the characters become so richly real... To call this a vampire flick is prob a very crude understatement... i c it as an unique window showing human values and emotions in a very profound but interesting light.
To cut a long story short.. Integra is the heiress of the Hellsing family(vampire killer)... while Alucard is her employee,protector, confidant...
And if u still haven't done so before... spell Alucard backwards.. and u will see something interesting. LOL
Tolerance, Christianity, and "Christian prostitute"
Digging my book collection last nite... and found something interesting: Hendrik van Loon's Tolerance. I remember myself as a baby Christian in Yr 12 and reading it and got reali horrified after 1 chapter and decided i won't read it because my faith is too weak and i might get all pulled away by its philosophy and think Christianity is reali only for the ignorant.
Now when i opened it again, i read on... knowing God will provide me with the wisdom to understand and keep in the truth. ^^
but it is indeed a very thoughtful and perceptive book..... weaving history and philosophy into very engaging short chapters. The undertoning interweaving them all being: Christianity is history's biggest enemy to tolerance.
But reali.. wat is the enemy? Human sin. When truth become an organised religion.. sin unavoidably set in and convert the seeking of truth into group loyalty.. which is of course a much simpler and easier concept to follow. In Andrew Wheatcroft's Infidels... we hear the ludicrous story that in Spain prior to the conquest of Granada... once a 'Christian prostitute' sued a Muslim client who tried to buy her service. When Christianity is reduced down to the name of a group... then it cease to be associated with the Lord anymore...
History is God's wisdom... we learn about human sin and folly... and the Lord enables us to grow in wisdom and shine His light.
