some thoughts...

Not exactly in the brightest mood 2day... had a reali boring tute.. talked about useless stuff but then still attempted to talk so tutor won't mark me down... and attempt not so successful either.. felt so fake... got grumpy on train b/c it was late... and i didn't get a seat b/c there r so many ppl... looked at myself in reflection when train went past parliament tunnel... didn't reali want to look at myself b/c of my silly thoughts...
Got home and when i was reading the Bible.. the verse that spoke to me despite my reluctance 2day was Mark 10:45 For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.
My self-pitying 2day reali has no ground.. and great thing the Lord called me to service again. ^0^
Listened to Kenshin TV OST... after so many years the music still didn't lose its appeal to me.. 1st song listened happened to be a L'arc en ciel one.. reali enjoyed it... i guess when i was in a happy mood... Chemistry's smoothness always made it my 1st choice... but there r times.... when i just purely enjoy the insacchrine melancholic voices of L'arc en ciel...
my telecommunication got very weird 2day... 1st received a call on my mobile.... was busy didn't pick up... but when i called back less than a minute later... the fone no. returns 'call could not be connected.. plz check ur no and try again'... then around 6 20ish received an sms.. from my friend lu... but the sms was blank.. when i called her up later she was like no i didn't send u anything...
being so morbid minded as i always am... i reali suspect something sinister..... hehehe......
was reading history again these days... digging through my old book collections.... one of the stories reali touches me..

金自被圍以來，將帥戰沒甚眾，戊申，以近侍分守四城。蒙古兵鑿西城為五門以入，督軍鏖戰，及暮及退，聲言來日複集。是夕，金主集百官，傳位於東面元帥承麟。承麟，世祖之後拜甡之弟也，拜泣不敢受。金主曰：“朕所以付卿者，豈得已哉！以朕肌體肥重，不便鞍馬馳突。卿平日趫捷有將略，萬一得免，祚嗣不絕，此朕志也。”承麟乃起受璽。己酉，即位。
　　時孟珙之師向南門，至金字樓，列雲梯，令諸將聞鼓則進。馬義先登，趙榮繼之，萬眾競入，大戰城上。烏庫哩鎬及其將帥二百人皆降。時百官稱賀，禮畢，亟出捍敵，而南城已立宋幟。俄頃，四面鼓噪夾攻，聲震天地。南面守者棄門走。孟珙招江海、塔齊爾之師以入，完顏仲德帥精兵一千巷戰，不能禦。金主自經于幽蘭軒。仲德聞之，謂將士曰：“吾君已崩，何以戰為！吾不能死於亂兵之手，吾赴汝水從吾君矣，諸君其善為計！”言訖，赴水死。將士皆曰：“相公殉國，吾輩獨不能耶？”於是參政富珠哩小洛索、烏淩阿呼圖、總帥元志、元帥裕珊爾、赫舍哩柏壽、烏庫哩和勒端及軍士五百餘人皆從死焉。
　　承麟退保子城，聞金全殂，率群臣入哭，因謂眾曰：“先帝在位十年，勤儉寬仁，圖復舊業，有志未就，可哀也已！宜諡曰哀。”奠未畢，城破，諸將禁兵共舉火焚之，奉禦完顏絳山收其骨，將瘞之汝水上。江海入宮，執參政張天綱以歸，孟珙問金主所在，天綱以實告曰：“城危時，即取寶玉置小室，環以草，號泣自經，曰：‘死便火我。’”煙焰未絕，珙乃與塔齊爾分金主骨及寶玉、法物。承麟亦為亂兵所殺。金亡。

那種壯烈﹐真的很感動。